Permanant Bruise

Fri, 15 Apr 2005 01:43:09 GMT

yeh hey every one
my month has bee good
at first
but bad
at the point it is right now
but thigs r getting better
yeh
LEE
yeh he can fuck off
cuz idk long story
and yeh
but i have a crush
his name is jorge
i fucked him over for lee
but i guess he forgave me
i cant wait for him to come home on sat
we r going swimming all dayy
then we r going to the movies
and on sunday we r gann ahng out at the poool again
i miss him
he liked me a lot
but no im stupid and was a bitch about it
:) hes awsome
and he calls me his princess
but idk im not ganna gett oo attached
cuz in the end i always get fucked over it sux ass
i really do hate boys
maybe i should just become a nun???
or not
i love boyss way to much but they r jerks
idk
i dont make sense
neither do boys
hahah
yeh
skool is fustrating

i hate it

yeh well i cant wait to see jorge
he is the bestest!!!!!
:)
he makes me smile<33333

yeh so

:(
i miss him

lee can die!!!

fuck i need space

Sun, 26 Dec 2004 19:02:39 GMT

yeah
christmas....
it sux
cuz yeah
1.my mom wasnt here for it
2.my nanna is dying.
3.i didnt do much for x mas
4. i didnt get much
5.im tired of being broke
6.boys suck
7.santa didnt get me what i mainly wanted ...a boyfriend that woulld treat me right

there r soome posative sides

iver this break i have realized a lot like to be urself dont try to be n e one else
or just cuz theres a style dont try to be kool and go in the pit or something and make ur self even look worse!!
i realized that i met some new ppl that i feel really comfortable around
they actually let me be free
let me do what i want
ppl need to give me fucking space
ppl always saying blah blah blah u shouldnt do that its bad for u blah blah blah
i wanna be able to do what i want
its gay mind ur own damn business
thats why i dont really answer my phone fro certain ppl n e more
thats y i dont talk to certain ppl n e more im tired of drama im tired of ppl coming to me with their problems when i have enough of my own
i dont need ur shit
but yeah n e ways
i just want room
so plz give it to me
and i wish that sometime soon i can
have a boyfriend that actually cares so much for me blah who cares ill become a nun!

Sat, 16 Oct 2004 00:03:58 GMT

home coming is tomarrooooooooowwwww!!!!im stressing hardXcore ohhh mannn some one plzz help me ill post some pixup after homecoming oh yeah and im prolly ganna have a kick back at my house next friday or saturday

Sat, 09 Oct 2004 19:26:42 GMT

hey every one how is every one doing i havnt wrote in here for a while

yeah...whateva

Sun, 22 Aug 2004 00:07:01 GMT

hmm ive been out lately i have had some funn

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fun fun fun

Wed, 18 Aug 2004 20:46:05 GMT

lately has been funn ive been hanging out with josh nik nico jehlar grizzlie robert and u know all them lately its been funn nico got a huka its siick cuz we always smoke it now haha last night we went to bobas???... idk it was funn tho and we smoked huka then they closed and so we stayed in the parking lot with nicos huka and smoked it til like 10 or 11 it was funn robert opened up more we hugged a lot and its kool now he isnt that embarrassed now yhes so cute and nice and idk haha hes kool but n e ways ive been having lots of funn feliscia stayed the night the other night and we stayed out til 2:30 or so i got so fucked up it was funn we were at paradise point and idk it was just funn and every one but nico of course was stoned and we were all hingry s we went to in and out it was good but the next day i didnt even remeber that we went but then it came to me haha but yeah i miss all myfriends so call me if n e one wants to hang out and no one leaves me comments n e more so comment!!!!!!!!!!!!! 253-4990 thats my number call me ppl

wow lots of funn

Sat, 14 Aug 2004 07:25:25 GMT

well last night i had a kickback /slumber party it was funn it qwas mainly guys and 2 girls well 7 guys haha it was me ,jenn,jehlar,robert,albert,nik,josh,niko,andjason my mom was kol with everything and then she went to the casino and said she would be back at like 5 so we blazed it up and robert drank it was kool then me and robvert made out for like ever it was hella funny then at 5:00 i fell asleep then all of a sudden i woke up at 5:30 am and i told the boys to go in the living room and yeah my mm didnt end up getting home til like 10 am hahaha then niko left early in the morning and then josh jason and nik left at like 9 and robert ,albert,and jehlar stayed til 4!! it was kool i love dem boys !!! and yeah then tonight i went to the movies with chris his friend and jenn it was kool but after we were so bored !! now im waiting for this media shower or what ever and i only got 4 hours of sleep so im soo tired!!

not tired!

Thu, 12 Aug 2004 12:14:16 GMT

well its 5:12 am and i still havnt gone yto sleep i cleaned my room cuz i think some ppl might be coming over tomarrow night but yeah and now i cant sleep im really bored no one is online and i dont wanna wake n e one up lol well call me if n e one ever wants to hang out 253-4990

ive been thinking a lot about something and its been bugging dont bother asking what it is cuz i wont tell u its really personal!

Thu, 12 Aug 2004 08:21:18 GMT

well today i went to josh's then we stayed and watched movied then went to some smoke shop and nick bought a steam roller and then we smoked in his bronco it was funn then we went and had ice cream cake at josh's cuz he "graduated" lol but yeah then watched a movie "darkness falls" then went to 7 11 and well nikko came before and we went with him and then we went back to josh's and then me jason and nikko left and went to oasis

Wed, 11 Aug 2004 17:13:07 GMT

well yesterday we were at my house and then wet to jenns and got ready and then josh.adrian,and jehlar picked us up and we went to go get pizza and then we went to roberts house and we chilled there then left to juans and then went to the mall for idk y thne they got like something and we went tot he high skool to go do some stuff but some of us didnt want to so we left and went to jst marina and chilled thne went to go eat and thne went home it was kinda boring but oh well and today i was suppose to have a klil kickback at my house but my mom is being a bitch so now i cant hmmm thats lmae!

wahh wahh wahh

Tue, 10 Aug 2004 08:04:38 GMT

hmm well today i went to josh's and then later went to the mall then we decided to go to oasis it was funn and then we went to the semitary that shit was scary cuz they were telling scary stories most of the time and idk it was just scary!!

Mon, 09 Aug 2004 05:01:46 GMT

well these last few days have been crazy i told my mom i was staying the night at sohpias and we stayed at terris's and everything went wrong i got piised at chrissy cuz i thought some stupid shit cuz of sophia and i got it all wrong cuz that dumb bitch sophia likes to chnage shit around but yeah then i fell asleep and terris told me to go in his bed so they dont wake me up again and so i did and i fell asleep again and i woke up later cuz sophias loud mouth and she was talking shit about me tot erris like about country music saying i like all the played out shti how immature is that and i like the county i like she can suck my fat ass penis and then i saw adrian laying next to me and i told him and then we fell asleep againa dnt ehn later that night eddie came in the room and was like omg garret wants to suck my dick he was ganna go down on me!!!! and he went out of the room and i walked into the living room and terris went to lay on top of sophia not knowing i was right behing them !!!! what stupid biznatches!! and then they were in the room together alone and who knows what happened im not assuming n e thing that happened but sophia wants every one to like her she needs the attention and yeah so i wgot mad and went home at 5 in the moring but yeah last night was crazy!!!! it was kool i had funn when i wasnt drunk and then i called everett and invited him and he invited eddie and adrian wich i didnt really care....then they showed up like 30 mintutes late cuz i had to meet them at ralleys cuz they didnt know where the party whas and yeah they showed up with sophia!!! i was so pissed and i told all of them that they couldnt go to the paryty i guess everett planned this and says he is the peace patrol! and he was trying to get us to be friends but i was like i dont give a fuck fuck her i hate that bitch or what ever i said idk what the fuck i said uit happened so fast!but yeah then i left and went back to the party jenn was in the room about to smoke so i said imma go get faded and i played some drinking game and i got all fucked up i must have a had like over 20 shots idk mann that shit was crazy one minute i was fine the next i was drunk off my ass and yeah and some how i ended up with the hott guy i didnt think even knew who i was and we made out and shit it was crazy! and thne i threw up a lot and like idk i guess siome guy i didnt even know was next to me and told me he like cared for me n shit and i was like i dont even know u and idk jenn told me this and i guess i said ok well i have to go throw up nopw and i gave him a kiss on the forehead and then said omg i just kissed him on the forehead and i dont know him!!!! and then i went to throw up and when we were leavin i guess i said party at my house and ppl were like for reals and were fallowing me or something it was funn tho!!! and then nick and robert took me home! lol me and jenn actually and i went and thrw the slippers away..and thne went to jenns rooma nd was in the closet throwing up!

funny thing i remember-

-seeing a shooting star while laying on the floor outside

- jenn cracking up about juanito not being able to feel his legs!

-making out with robert

-seeing migz and kristine throw up in the bathroom

-feeding migz water while his head being half way in the toilett

-nick,robet,and adrian saying i was hott

-sarah kissing me

-not being able to walk

-the fat lady tell me the cops were coming

-seeinf jason in my pj pants

-moving front car to car throwing up in front of em

- some guy luis was every where i was

::*::8shaunay*::*::

shoes dont stretch and men dont change

Wed, 04 Aug 2004 06:56:25 GMT

hmmm well today sophia was here cuz she stayed the night last night and yeah we layed out it was kool and my mom brought us subway!!!!!then later we dropped sophia off at home and got jenn and then went to the store and i got 2 pairs of sunglasses and a skirt and my mommy and i bought jenn apurse cuz were kool like that and thne jenn went home and i hung out with adrian and garret hahah garret is ganna buy me my boredshorts tomarrow!!siiiiick huh?.....well yeah i talked tot erris tonight too i acted like nothing happened it was kool but yeah hmm...im tired and yeah so imma go chill with my mom then go to sleep good night yall lmoa=)

guys get mad too easily!

Mon, 02 Aug 2004 05:53:40 GMT

well yeah terris is still md at me and i called him and he was like i dont wanna talk right now and he hung up on me so that fucken sux ass that pisses me off to !!!well yeah n e ways today i went to the "beach" well i wanted to but jenn and sophia wanted to go to zacks and were kinda already there but w/e and so we went there and chilled pretty boring and zack started being a bitch cuz he got all mad cuz jenn was going to the movies with some guys wich she doesnt even like and he called some dumb broad and was like wanna go to the movies and ya it was dumb so we just left and thne everett called and he wanted to chill and then ya we ended up going to the drive inn and seeing the village dont ever go to see that movie it is dumb u wont understand it and even if u do its lame.......well we only had to pay for 2 of us cuz the rest of use hiddd hahahaha that shit was funny:)=)but yeah hmmmmm.....i think imma hang out with joe tomarrow cuz he flaked out today=/ not kool but he apolagized so its all gravy n e ways im out ....

Sun, 01 Aug 2004 07:01:52 GMT

well tonight was fucked up me and terris got in this big ol fight it really sucked things r so much different with us it really does suck like alot but fuck dude i wanna be wuith him i want everything to be the same as it was but it doesnt seem to work that way everytime i say im ganna talk to him about it somethin goes wrong and i dont get the chance to and when i try to call him i pussy out fuck imma try to do it but hmm its weird if u know terris tell him how much i care pll:(

i miss how it use to be with him:'( its not the same n e more:-/

Sat, 31 Jul 2004 22:12:35 GMT

(I do swear that I'll aways be there.
I'd give anything and everything and I will always care.
Through weakness and strength, happiness and sorrow,
for better or worse, I will love you with
every beat of my heart.)
From this moment life has begun
From this moment you are the one
Right beside you is where I belong
From this moment on

From this moment I have been blessed
I live only for your happiness
And for your love I'd give my last breath
From this moment on

I give my hand to you with all my heart
Can't wait to live my life with you, can't wait to start
You and I will never be apart
My dreams came true because of you

From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment on

You're the reason I believe in love
And you're the answer to my prayers from up above
All we need is just the two of us
My dreams came true because of you

From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
From this moment
I will love you as long as I live
From this moment on

bored off my ass

Sat, 31 Jul 2004 21:06:19 GMT

Spell your name:
A - You can be very quiet when you have something on your mind.
B - You are always cautious when it comes to meeting new people.
C - You definitely have a party side in you; don't be shy to show it.
D - You have trouble trusting people.
E - You are a very exciting person.
F - Everyone loves you.
G - You have excellent ways of viewing people.
H - You are not judgemental.
I - You are always smiling & making others smile.
J - Jealousy.
K - You like to try new things.
L - Love is something you deeply believe in.
M - Success comes easily to you.
N - You like to work, but you always want a break.
O - You are very open-minded.
P - You are very friendly and understanding.
Q - You are a hypocrite.
R - You are a social butterfly.
S - You are very broad-minded.
T - You have an attitude, a big one.
U - You feel like you have to equal up to people's standards.
V - You have a very good physical and looks.
W -You like your privacy.
X - You never let people tell you what to do.
Y - You cause a lot of trouble.
Z - You're always fighting with someone

today was alright:-/

Sat, 31 Jul 2004 06:08:33 GMT

hmmm well today i didnt really do any thing besides go to the evertimeidie/atreyu/lamb of god sho it was ok i got a shirt we left early too so yeah now im home and im bored i just ate mac n cheese it was mmmmm mmmmm gooood!:)

Fri, 30 Jul 2004 07:55:18 GMT

well today was a lazy day i wwoke up cuz of jenn she called me at 9:30 AM and so i went online for a while then like at 3 i went and layed down and fell asleep til 5:45PM and then i called jenna nd we got ready cuz we were ganan go to the movies as friends with ah and ruben but yeah so we went and saw anchor man and then snuck into white chiks but for white chiks they didnt go and yeah i dont like the movies its to fucking expensive!!!!!!!!n e ways yeah i got home like at 12:30 hmm now im writing in here im freaking bored ohh dude and when we were waiting for my mom we saw a van that looked like limons and its called the family wagon and it was them we were all oh shit is that the family wagon and we were kidding but it was lmao!!!

yeah...

Thu, 29 Jul 2004 20:34:07 GMT

hmm this is ganna be a lond fucking story!!! ok well hmmm....the night before last jenn stayed the night and i talked tot erris on the phone we said that we were ganna chill the next night wich was last night and well yesterday came and jennw ent home to get ready then we met at the mall we were there for maybe 10 minutes...lol cuz jaunito called jenn and then he was just getting off of work wich is the mexican food shop and so we went to say hi and then he was like im going to josh's wanna go so we went and picked josh and jehlar up right quick then went to juanitos house it was funn and we went in the attick and played the drums haha then we went to jehlars house he took a shower and then we went back to juanitos house and we ate chips and drank soada lol then we went to joshs house to meet his brother cuz we were ganan go to jehlars auditions for this band and we went and listned and jehlar made it ,it was kool!!!!! then we had to leave cuz juan had to be home and we got dropped off at CVH and waited for juan and other ppl to come and pick us up and the other ppl came and we went and got juan cuz they saw us first i guess haha athen we went to go pick up miguel and juanito but juanito couldnt come so we just got migz then went to jehlars and chilled there then terris called me so we hung out at the beach at first it sucked cuz he didnt even hug me or nothing but he warmed up to me later:) but it still isnt the same idk y it sux tho :'( then we took adrian home cuz i had to be home at 12 then terris took me home and then yeah he called me later and we talked and then i was talking to ruben online and it was funny cuz i was looking at him thru his web cam and i was listening to cuz of his mic haha it was funny but yeah hmm idk what imma do today

the big story is that migz told zack that migz and jenn kissed when they didnt and zack got mad and wont believe jenn that they didnt kisss so i told migz shit and now he is ganna tell the truth but yeah it was gay ppl need to mind their own business too !!!

sux

Wed, 28 Jul 2004 08:09:32 GMT

well terris did call me and we straightened things out but its weird cuz things just arent the same it sux...:(

darn!

Wed, 28 Jul 2004 06:16:36 GMT

hmm well terris was mad at me and adrian said that he said he wasnt mad n e more and that he didnt know why he was mad and that he would call me when he got home from work but he never did so i dont know wtf is going on this six n e ways yeah me and jenn were lazy today and brandon came over it was funn we were yelling in the mega phone thing and listening to country music and just being dumb it was funn but im sad about terris:'(

bad day

Tue, 27 Jul 2004 19:08:22 GMT

ok well yesterday was bad hmmmm.....during the day my aunt came over with the baby and she was ganna fix my comp cuz i had no sound and she fixed it but when she was done everything else but the sound was messed up so it sucked but i ended up fixing it later so that went ok but then i went out with some friends and found out some stupid shit wich sucked then i went and met jenn by jack in the box and i told adrian a story wich he told terris and terris got all pissed off so everything was fucked but yeah and so we went to jenns house and i talked to adrian for a while and it was kool but i was down cuz of this hole terris thing but n e ways this morning adrian called me and said that terris wasnt mad n e more and that he didnt know why he was so mad and that he will call me when he gets off of work so yeah everything except one thing is kool but fuck u ull figure out who u r sooner or later !!!!ur fucked up how can u do that to some one !!!:-/

Mon, 26 Jul 2004 07:57:48 GMT

yeah well hmm today i went to my friend niki's to see her fiansey or what ever and we met him then we went to jenns house and me and jenn fell asleepa nd then a couple hours later jenn woke me up to sojme tsunami bomb and it was kol but i was fucking tired i dont get sleep n e more cuz of terris lol nah but its kool i love talking to him so yeah then we called my mom and she took us to samantha's house the lil sam and then we went to this party down the street josh's party it was ok but ya i saw some guy i hate and he talks alot of shit so yeah it was kool idk it was funn but im tired so good night byes:)

yay!

Sun, 25 Jul 2004 18:16:27 GMT

well i stayed the night at terris's house again and it was me,everett,adrian,eddie,and michelle,heather,and some other dumb braud but they had to leave with in a little bit of time and i got all mad cuz like there was no point in going but ne ways ya i had funn terris finally asked me out so yeah today is exactly a month since i started going out with robert so its kool i wanna keep a relationship tho so imma try to keep this one cuz terris is a great guy:) but yeah imma go now cuz im tired good night